(a bit of context background to help u i am a Muslim that i loved this girl lets call her N in high school for 3 years and now it's3 years since, i loved her so much and in the past 3 years out of high school we used to talk but i think she doesn't share same feeling i don't she didnt want to answer, anyway now it's been 2 months since she disappeared and the way she disappeared is ramdan because we used to not talk in ramadan and we already said that we will stop talking anyway she just left me on seen in the last day and she completly gone we didn'teven talk how we don't talk this ramadan, anyway in eiid i used to go to my grandma's house, anyway i sent her a message of happy eid she answered after 22 hours, than after a week i sent a hey message that staid for 2 weeks than i removed it because she didn't answer that effected me and made me sad because i don't know why she left me just like that suddenly) The dream is i don't remember the beginning all I know is I am with my dad in urgent taking some stuff to my grandma's home, where my sis and my mom and my family from dad side (not everyone) are there and specially the girl N was there, she was in the bed laying and my family were surrounding her she looked sick i guess or she was sick but she was talking, and we give those things to them we're home of the things gave it to N and another thing to my sister, what I remember we gave to N is a book and she started reading like 4 pages while my family were surrounding her, by the way I didn't look at her i just recognized her a little from her voice and hair (she wears a hijab now) she was do sick i didn't look at her cuz I am a Muslim it's haram to look i was lowering my gaze but sometimes I take a look but didn't see her. Anyway my family looked happy and listening to her carefully. Than while talking my sister were praising me for something I don't remember. Than I went to the kitchen than I went to the small garden that my grandma has because I thought it was haram to stay with them specially N weren't with her hijab anyway down in the garden (the garden is down stairs) they have a garage i saw a car and inside it was N's brother, he got out of car and sit down. Anyway I went to him and said hey how are you and stuff (at this point i thought in the dream that our family is related or something) he was talking good with me fast i realized that he bought the garden and he is doing some changes to it to make like a small outdoor cafeteria that has a lot of things like video games section and TV section anyway i was talking with him. Than I went upstairs to check, than I found my family they were drinking coffee but I didn't saw N i don't know if she were not there or I just didn't saw her, than I woke up in another dream by the Adan the call of prayer El Asr (which i felt it was really really true cuz really i slept in the afternoon and i was hoping to wake up before asr prayer in real life right now)i was so sad and crying because I saw her and didn't talk to her or something I was just so sad and hurting, than I went to bathroom and I was peeing while crying peeing blue liquid high intensity than I woke up in another dream also at asr call of prayer this time kinda normal and woke up running to do Wduu and go to mosque to pray than I remembered that I didn't eat lunch which true than I woke up this time really woke up and I came to u to speak directly to not forget all this I still forget details
Your dream is rich with symbols and emotions, reflecting both your conscious feelings and subconscious thoughts. Let's break down the elements:
Setting at Your Grandma's House: Your grandmother's house often symbolizes security, tradition, and familial roots. The dream taking place at this location suggests a connection to family values and memories, particularly those associated with comfort and security.
N’s Presence and Condition: N being sick and in bed, surrounded by family, might be emblematic of your concern for her well-being—both emotionally and spiritually. Her reading a book could signify seeking knowledge, understanding, or a search for something deeper. This could reflect your desire to know her true feelings or intentions.
Interaction Dynamics: Your actions in the dream—lowering your gaze and not directly engaging due to religious values—point to your respect for her and your adherence to your beliefs. This might also indicate a feeling of distance and a barrier between you, a respect that prevents deeper engagement.
N’s Brother and the Garden: The garden and the interaction with her brother could symbolize growth and potential. The transformation of the garden into a smaller outdoor café with games and leisure areas might represent your desires for new beginnings or changes in your relationship dynamics—transforming something traditional (the garden) into something more modern and fun (the café).
Multiple Awakenings: Awakening several times, particularly with the call to prayer, suggests a search for spiritual fulfillment and timing in life decisions. The call to prayer represents guidance, introspection, and turning points. Your awakening at these moments could mean you are reflecting on spiritual duties and their alignment with your personal life.
Blue Liquid and Emotional Release: Crying and peeing blue liquid might signify emotional release and the need to cleanse or let go of built-up emotions or tensions. Blue often symbolizes tranquility or sadness; peeing this color could suggest a purging of built-up sadness while seeking peace.
Sadness and Unfulfilled Desire: Waking up in another layer of dreaming, feeling sad for not communicating with N, highlights a sense of regret or missed opportunity. This could reflect your real-life feelings of incompleteness and a longing to resolve unresolved emotions with her.
Waking Up with a Focus on Reality: Finally waking up and remembering you hadn’t eaten lunch indicates an awareness of your neglect for immediate needs—both physical and emotional. This connects to the theme of making sure your basic needs are met while dealing with complex emotions.
In summary, your dream seems to be exploring themes of longing, emotional connection, tradition versus modernity, spiritual duties, and the process of letting go in the face of unreciprocated feeling. It suggests a desire to transition, to grow, and perhaps change the way you relate to your emotions concerning N and the values that guide you. Your subconscious is encouraging you to reflect on your pathways, spiritual commitments, and how these interact with personal desires and relationships.